Stop Self-Sabotage

Overeating recovery happened when I stopped sabotaging my highest good for my lowest emotions.

What do I mean?

Well first I’d make sure that I was physically “food sober” - meaning my eating was consistently keeping my blood sugar low and steady so my hunger and cravings were very gentle and un-obtrusive.

But “Staying stopped” is another matter. So, something like this would happen:

I’d write a healthy plan for the day. And then I wouldn’t feel like doing it.

It was boring.

Other people were eating other things and I felt deprived.

I had to say no and I felt embarrassed.

I’d get mad, or lonely, or anxious - and want something to take the edge off.

And I was taking a sledgehammer to my health, sanity, and everything I wanted most for these feelings.

When I was able to allow these emotions, to acknowledge and feel them, but refused to let them sabotage the promise that I made to myself every time I wrote a food plan, guess what I got in return?

I felt strong. 

I felt empowered. 

I felt energized. 

I show up authentically.

It was emotional sobriety in action with the food.

That doesn’t mean I didn’t feel the negative emotions - I did and still do. But more often then not, I recognize them as feelings and not the truth.